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juni 7, 2010

So it’s been a while. I still don’t know what to write about, I still don’t know where I’m going with my life, and I still don’t how to deal with it. I’m just gonna give this a try, to write something personal that won’t just end up among the drafts.

So I haven’t told you much at all about it, but I went to South Africa  a couple of months ago. And the people I met there, came over here a couple of weeks ago. I found friends. Not just any kind of friends, but close friends. We really connected there and so we did even here. It’s friends that I want to see again but that I’m afraid I’ll lose. There’s so much distance and so much happening all the time even when I just sit here by my kitchen table doing nothing that makes our friendship harder to keep.
I’m scared. Scared that we’ll lose contact, scared of not being able to follow through with returning the when-we-meet-again-gifts we gave each other, scared to forget everything they taught me.

Maybe I’m just holding on to what I know, because they played(play) an unpredictable part of my life and I’ve got even more of unpredictable coming at me right now in my life. Maybe that’s why I’m scared.
Nevertheless, they mean so much to me and I hope I’ll never lose them. I hope all those words weren’t just an imaginable vision but words that will actually mean something in the future.

(I dared. You might not think of this as much, or even important but putting this in words means a lot to me.)

L.O.V.E
januari 23, 2010

Excuse me little homie I know you don’t know me
januari 22, 2010

this particular picture was taken by this flickr-user,
but if you want to catch some of my stuff, check it out right here (and i actually have another link there, but it’s on my profile). Hope you enjoy it!

Lost?
januari 14, 2010

It’s like I don’t know where you are anymore.

Where are you now
januari 4, 2010

I don’t think there’s been a single time in my life when I’ve actually known what I wanted to do with myself.
Thinking I’d turn into a dolphin trainer just because I liked dolphins doesn’t count.
I don’t know what I’m supposed to do with my life.
And it’s kicking my ass.


december 31, 2009

They’re talking about blogs in the kitchen. The new guy, my sisters friend Robert, asking everyone if they had a blog. First he turned to E, then to K, then to F, and while the last one answered I stepped into the other room.
I don’t know why it’s so strange to me to acknowlege that I have one.
On the other hand, I do know.
I’m ashamed of it because I don’t know why I have it. It started out as a favour to my friend (a friend who doesn’t even bother anymore) when I didn’t really know what it was. I don’t know what I should write about, I don’t know what others and myself are expecting me to write. I don’t know how I’m gonna let loose with it, cause I’m scared that people might judge me.
It’s silly and pathetic, I know.
Maybe I should just step right out there. Out of my fear.

Maybe.

”I accpet this award as a call for action…”
december 11, 2009

I just saw President Barack Obama’s speech for the Nobelprize of Peace. And…
Well, I can’t say that I think he deserved it yet, but I do think that he presented many true and crucial points about war and peace, human realtions and the understanding of cultures, unity and  about love.
There were parts that firt made me wrinkle my nose, but then I remembered that one should try to see things through others glasses and to lift my eyes so that I would be able to see the whole perspective.
And I like Obama.
He’s not Messias, but he’s really good.
End of story.

I’ve always supported Obama even though he’s not  my actual president, but as an US-outsider ( i.e swedish) I think he is a healthy and a great leader for a nation that posseses a lot power and influence throughout the world.
(Around this time last year I wrote a huge essay for my english class about Obama. I started when it was in the end of the campaigning process and just a week to the final elections on the 4th of november, and i finish a couple of weeks after the inauguration. I got into his policy and the campaign and it was really interesting.)

In the name!
december 9, 2009

”If you want it to happen baby
just hold tight and believe
all you gotta do is try
and then try once again
then try a few more times and then try after then”
-Jill Scott

There’s so mcuh i want to do. I just need to figure out how and when and where.
Wish me good luck, will ya?

Joy to the world!
december 7, 2009

This is my first post at wordpress.com! I’m actually already a user of blogger, but I ventured out to see if the grass is greener around here (haven’t made up my min about it yet). I hope a get a grip on how things are done, I think there’s no suprise that it might take a while for me to get used to things.

Obviously I am from Sweden (I’m taking the challenge of writing in english – but I think it shines through that it’s not my native language). I’m 19 and I like photographing, creativity in various forms; art, fashion etc., i like Jesus, my friends and so much more. I guess you’ll just have to wait and see…

See ya around!